On Father's Day 2020

Sweetie Pie:

It’s ironic that as you were approaching adolescence, I would frequently say to my friends “The point is coming when I might wish to be put to sleep until I can have a grownup, adult conversation with her.” This is an object lesson about being careful what you wish for – and that’s my topic for Father’s Day 2020.

For a good part of my life, I have gotten precisely what I wished for – most especially you. The problem seems always to have appeared, where I wished for the wrong things. One’s force of will can produce overwhelming effect and much of the time, within human limits, people can get exactly what they want. This can be either good or bad. It takes wisdom gained only by experience to figure out the difference.

Among the long list of things so extremely difficult about having no contact with you, has been being unable to share my life lessons with you. I have made every mistake you will probably ever dream about making – and suffered for them. These experiences contain the most valuable information I could ever provide for you.

Although I know almost nothing about your life today – I know one thing with certainty. You live in an oppressive environment where your wants and needs are way at the bottom of the list. None of this would be the case if I were involved in your life right now.

I am reluctant to express more of my thoughts because you characterized my approach last year as “creepy.” However creepy it might have been, it was the only set of tools in my toolbox, so I used it. Yet another lesson in being careful what one wishes for.

In any case I hope and pray every day that the last notification ding on my phone is something from you. Creepy? Call it whatever you want, that’s how I feel. Please contact me.

Loving you every day,

Your Dad

hlev3@aol.com

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